Monday, March 9, 2009

Still-a-waiten'

Yea still waiting to see if my hubby officially got the job or not. They are taking a long time to sign the papers. I'm getting really nervous about the idea of staying here. I was so dead against it at first (moving), now I just can't stand the idea of staying here. I can't stand the idea of having to evacuate this year. Last year was so hard on me! Mentally and physically! It took me 11 hours to drive a distance that would normally take 5 hours!!!! That's insaine! For about an hour straight we didn't move a single inch in bumper to bumper traffic. AND WE HAD LEFT EARLY TO!!! I ran out of gas on the way and by the grace of God found a gas station that was open. The line to it was an 45 minutes long, but hey I found gas! Then I had to go potty in the woods on the side of the road. It was not a fun experience. Katrina wasn't any nicer to us either! I had a nervous breakdown for Katrina! Watching it on T.V. over our city. Wondering if we had a home left or not. I just broke down in public. I fell to the ground and just couldn't stop crying! It was awful. Last year was pretty close to that to!

Anyways, keepin' my fingers crossed and praying God gives us this great opprotunity! And on a lighter note it's a new month in my "womanly cycle" as I call it. Which means new oprotunity to try and have a baby! YAY! Hopefully though things will start to go smoothly for us!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Just a bad day! :(

So my hubby went back to work this morning at 5am. He stayed home an extra day this week. Anyways, we haven't heard anything about what his company will offer us (for sure) yet. I have so many questions and NO answers! I'm so frustrated! If they say we have to be there by April 1st why can't they give us any answers and why doesn't my husband demand them? I don't know. I'm just really sad today.
I started looking back at how good of a student I was in highschool and how everyone, including myself ,had such high expections/hopes for my future. Now here I am 10 years later a big fat NOTHING! I haven't done anything with my life! I feel so depressed today. It's just one of those days you wish you would have just stayed in bed for! I don't usually look at my life that way, but today it just hit me the wrong way I guess. I just can't wait to get a new start on life in a new place. I'm sure that will help, but right now just some answers and clear direction about my near future home and life would be great. If it were only that easy to just figure it all out!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Waiting to move...

So here I am still bored out of my mind waiting to move to Texas. I'm so nervous because I have never even seen the town before. I'm really trusting my husband here! His work is supposed to give us a "moving package", but we don't know all the details about what it includes yet. Hopefully we will get more information about it this week. I'm just hoping that the rumored downpayment they give you is true, because we don't have much money in the bank right now. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I'm just worried about all my kitties and pets. I have 3 outdoor cats that I want to take with us, but we might have to be put up in a hotel until we find a new home. So I'm really worried about them. I can't let them stay in with our 5 inside cats because our inside cats are declawed. So I'm just keeping my fingers crossed waiting for the green light and more information.
I'm so excited that I will be able to go back to work and find a new college to go to. This sitting around the house all day thing just isn't for me!!!!